Tuesday, 28 June 2016
Notes on a move
Tuesday, 4 August 2015
Brave
Someone very close to me has fought a battle for 25 years, although the last two years have finally been beating it I am in no way under the impression that the battle is over. On a daily basis they stay the course, do the work, dodge the relapse and so far so good. They’ve got a place of their own after 12 months in a residential rehab started a uni course (after never completing year eight!) and today made one of the most brave choices ever.
It’s not my story to tell so I won’t tell it here, in the past there have been discussions about this person's story being co-opted by another close person and its not cool at all.
I needed to get it down somewhere, that I am scared for my close person, that this decision is one of the most dangerous things they have ever done. But that I know why they’ve done it and I that I am so very very proud that they are trying proud that they are brave enough to even try.
I may not be one of them brave people yet but one day I think I could be.
xxpt
Wednesday, 22 July 2015
Stresssssed
I was a bit late to the bus stop this morning
But
the bus turned up right away and I got a seat and there was hardly any traffic
Which meant
I had enough time to get a coffee at the uni (no lines as its the holidays)
But
The lid on the coffee just would not fit on properly so it spilt all over my gloves and stockings (bright green opaques highlight black coffee stains really well- who knew?)
My morning was derailed by a new employee, half my day was spent showing him the ropes
But
I think he's going to work out really well, he seems process driven and has a good local manager & HE BOUGHT RED VELVET CUPCAKES!!
I butted heads with one of the implementation people in our company it is an ongoing thing and he refuses to listen to any suggestions at all & I had another staff member call and vent at me for 10 minutes about the person who sits next to me while I could not say anything back.
So
One of the other girls and I went to the pub for lunch we ate risottos and pastas with lots of salt and cheese then wandered back to work to face the rest of the day.
I made it home later than usual but the kitchen was clean thanks to TC and I knew I hd to shake it off I ran a bath poured a bowl of wine whacked on a new face mask from Lush and sank in for 90 mins (I know because I was able to watch 2 eps of Doctor Who on iView)
It looked a lot like this
Bangers and Mash with onion gravy another wine and a cuddle with the little turd of a cat should round off the day well.
The sad is still lurking but I have good things & people in my life and great things to look forward to. Me the fam and some of our best mates are all meeting up for a long weekend out west at a friend's pub. A road trip, with big sky, old friends and the promise of fires and marshmallows hugs and a four days away from work sound like a great remedy.
How do you shake off the sads? Are you a bath person? Or a wine person? Or even a big sky person?
xxpt
Friday, 29 May 2015
So two weeks in, how am I doing?
Knitted half a cardigan for myself & 3/4's of a baby gift
hemmed a skirt for TC
went to Flemington Markets for the first time and flirted up a storm with the vendors, I'm a total goose for never going there before for real, its so much closer than I had in my head and it was so much fun
cleaned & reorganised my fabric stash
done the same for the bathroom cupboard
watched TC in an amazing school production with my family
visited my Great Aunt out on the outskirts of Sydney
given away my beautiful but totally wasted mint condition orange nana trolley.
attended yoga a grand total of four times (and my body is sore!)
cooked up an absolute storm soups casseroles roasts and cake
picked up 2 pay it forward bags
slept in for a whole day
been for wanders in chinatown,
walked Blackwattle bay what a stunning place Sydney is right?!
been to the White Rabbit gallery with a girlfriend and the cutest little guy in the world! (have you been? its a great little gallery in Chippendale that has dumplings!)
had a 2 hour bath in the middle of the day
started and am LOVING my new book The Signature of Everything
I have also drunk many pots of tea, cuddled the cat, eaten toast and sat in the sunshine or watched the rain, done the floors and the washing and the floors again and more washing and then quite often yelled at the cat.
That sounds like heaps right? Not really, there are some days where I talk myself out of doing things.. does everyone do this? Distract myself for so long that I miss the timeframe to make the yoga class/catch the bus/see that movie or catch up with that mate who is down in Sydney for only a couple of days (albeit on the other side f the city). For example, I decided that today is the sewing day, I hemmed a skirt yesterday for TC but there are dresses to turn into skirts, others that need repairing and pants that need replacement zippers and re hemming - jeans especially as I bought them 3 years ago and still can't wear them! Not to mention the many fabrics that are now nicely organised but not actually being used!
But I just can't get moving.... is it that I don't want to finish things as I don't like endings or fear that the results will be a bit shit and I'd rather fail by not completing than fail by not being any good? Is this the reason I have currently reading 6 books? Knitting/crocheting 6 different projects, most of which I have or will redo at least 3 times? Is this why I have 6 metres or pristine navy liquid silk that i got for my 21st birthday that I still have not decided on a pattern? That's almost 20 freaking years PT!
So today the plan is -
hem them jeans
fix my drinking dress
finish my cardigan!
make pumpkin bread & a lime syrup cake (I am STILL using up the lime juice from the beer a month ago!)
finish my Kinky Friedman book so I can pass it on.
*and as always the washing
Oh! and tonight is the annual hooray for everyone AFL game, I really hope it stops raining
Also to get lost in the hole that is the internet in the search for the perfect dress for that navy silk....because I finally joined pinterest yesterday and probably yell at the cat again xxpt
Tuesday, 19 May 2015
A Stay-batical totally a thing I'm doing
So yesterday (official day 1 of holidays) ::
The plan for today is ::
Saturday, 9 May 2015
A few short letters of correspondence from the last month....
Dear....
...Brain CancerFuck you, how dare you grow in my friends head. How dare you regrow to a larger size after you were cut out and blasted with radiation. But you know what Brain cancer? She's on a new trial in Germany now and its going to wipe you out. She's going to come home with her man and have babies and live the life she had planned.
...Secret admirer
So the letter was lovely just keep working on your spelling, the follow up lolly pop though? Winner you really have been watching me!
...Sydney Swans
It'd be real nice if you won some more games OK? Also if you have any sway with the weather less rain on game day would be nice too.
...child next door
So I guess you've taken up the trumpet or some other brass instrument huh? t.o.p.s.....
...Tree Clearing man
Mate you are a gem, I'm sorry your machine broke but I'm glad that you could come on Monday and clear out our back yard I can't go out there but at least it looks like my backyard again
...pink salt tea light holders
please stop weeping!!! I will buy more tea lights tomorrow just give it a rest eh? puddles of salt water are not great for the furniture!
...child next door
Seriously though have you heard about stamp collecting? Or reading? Or sitting very very still? It's totally just as fun as the trumpet I promise.
...month long holidays
hurry up, please please please hurry up! I am so ready for you to get here and give me a break from the daily grind.
...parents of child next door
Watch out people my kid is getting a harmonica as a gift on a week or two. GameON
...Tasmania
Get ready Imma coming your way! WOO
xxpt
Tuesday, 21 April 2015
Weather, we gots it
Our beautiful jacaranda tree is now only a 3rd of the size it was yesterday. Luckily it didn't hit the house nor any of the fences which was so lucky. I was talking to MrPt pointing out the small branch that fell, went to have a shower and when I came back this.. (forgive the dodgy iPhone pic)
Note that the tree covers our whole backyard! side to side & back fence to almost the patio... It was also the branch that MrPt tied the hops to, hard times people.
Also lucky is that we rent, to be honest I was relieved to just be able to call the real estate to let them know about the tree and to organise the removal after the weather calms down.
I hope everyone is safe and hit me up if you need any firewood!
xxpt
Monday, 20 April 2015
Taking Stock - April
Making : knitted baby cardigans mostly the Gidday from Ravelry all in one go and its super cute too
Cooking : Pork Roasts I'm perfecting the art of crackling
Drinking : G & T with gin I blended myself at Archie Rose Distillery - it is such a great place too great staff, sexy room and amazingly boozy drinks a most excellent date place
Reading: Spanking Watson by Kinky Freidman - I found it on the footpath the other week, its a good bus book I love the way he has slang names for everything
Wanting: the easter eggs to never run out, I am dangerously close to eating the last of mine and everyone else is finished theirs already.
Looking: forward to tomorrow
Playing: with my new laptop :D hopefully this means that I may keep doing this blog thing
Deciding: what to do on my month off Can.Not.Wait
Wishing: that my kid no longer had blue hair cos I would like it back quite frankly
Enjoying: the new series of Game of Thrones!
Waiting: for more episodes of Game of Thrones
Liking: the crisper mornings and cooler nights
Wondering: where I can get all of my candle jars refilled, that must be a thing right? It seems silly to have them as a one time only thing
Loving: That football season is back
Pondering: how some crimes are seen as horrific and others not so much
Considering: still... I'll come back to this
Buying: a new Macbook Air! I need to do more research on how to actually use it but it's a bit sexy. And Cardigans!
Watching: aside from Game of Thrones MrPt and I are loving Bloodline, such great performances and beautifully shot
Hoping: That I wake up rested, I am tired all the time
Marvelling: at the forms & photos my cousin found of my great grandparents when they first came to Australia
Cringing: at the remarks made about Hilary Clinton announcing her run for POTUS Needing: to learn to use this Mac thing Questioning: so many things that are written Smelling: my workmates Marc Jacobs perfume it is so pretty on her
Wearing: Currently? Star wars pj pants and a Kylie tour singlet. Overall though cardigans and pencil skirts with brogues - completely Audrey Horne
Following: Roxanne Gay on twitter, not sure I agree with everything she says but some of it is interesting and she's funny too
Noticing: The change in the leaves inn the park on my way to work
Knowing: That change is a-coming
Thinking: That I need to start working full time hours and I'm not really looking forward to it
Admiring: My brother, facing his challenges & forging a new life, knowing that he is lonely but trying hard to build a life and becoming stronger and clearer everyday
Sorting: out my make up drawer (perhaps that's Should be Sorting as I have not yet technically started?)
Bookmarking: cardigan patterns to knit I really want to make a big snuggly one for myself Coveting: skin with no pimples & large freezers
Disliking: angst at work
Opening: emails from friends who are coming to visit
Giggling: at Mayim Blalik on the Big Bang Theory Amy Fairer Fowler is the greatest! Feeling: twingey in my back again, I think a trip to the Chiro is on the cards
Snacking: on left over easter eggs
Wishing: that the 31 women killed so far this year by their partners were still here Helping: Future Pete! Stocking up on soups and stews and extras in the freezer ready for some very busy weeks ahead.
Hearing: My daughter talk non-stop about her Demi Lovato concert on the weekend. To say that she loved it is such an understatement.
hmm that wasn't so bad after all xxpt
Tuesday, 14 April 2015
So I really suck at this right?
I think that perhaps I'm not really even a writer as such. Many things have happened since I was writing 2 years ago..
My kid is now 16!!
We moved house again
There were illnesses and a death in our family
My cat died
We opened a new business born of passion
We got a new cat
We went overseas for the first time is ages and fell in love with Asia
Our new cat escaped and was hit by a car
Within a week there was a new kitten and INDOOR kitten
Work ramped up for both MrPt and I
Kid had a super rough year and changed all of her peer group a couple of times
Many babies were made and borned to people other than myself (WIN)
Kid turned 15 got a nose ring
My brother got clean for the first time since he was 11
As a result I now have a relationship with him for the first time in many years
Kid got hot pink then orange hair
People other than MrPt and I got engaged/married/divorced
Kid got blue then aqua hair
My kid is now 16!!
Kid now has purple/aqua hair
Current cat is still living
Business is thriving both at the proper job and the passion project
There were also many dinners with friends a couple of weekends away, family Christmases that were at least tolerable. Kitchen and balcony dance parties new cocktails made and drunk, food and bars and gigs aplenty and I cannot wait for more of it.
xxpt
Friday, 8 March 2013
International Women’s Day and the Lady Fave
Tuesday, 5 March 2013
Old? Well yes I think I probably am…
So I guess in some ways yes I am old. Old as the hills dang-nabbit!
But then in other ways, I feel incredibly young, foolish and inexperienced. I have not travelled, nor have I been to Uni or undertook any tertiary studies at all (a year-long Cert 3 in Fashion Design doesn’t count does it?). I still colour my own hair with fairly hit and miss results (back to pink most recently) I wear bright playful colours rather than more appropriate work attire… I still have never had a proper Credit Card or a personal loan, and I happily remain a renter of houses rather than a home owner. But I guess the most telling thing to me that I am still young is I don’t know what I want to do when I grow up… I don’t feel like I’ve got a proper job, certainly not a career or a vocation, perhaps though this is something of a Gen Xer thing, a little like the character in Sylvia Plath’s The Bell Jar who (from memory) pictures herself in a tree laden with fruit, so much fruit that she is unable to choose so sits there watching it all rot, choosing nothing instead.*
I always thought growing up that 27 was the special grown up age. And a lot of great things happened to me that year I met MrPt, TC and I moved to Sydney away from my home town for the 1st time** however I am now 37 (in a row?!***) and for a while this became my new proper grown up age… but it’s not really is it? I mean if I’m still having all this uncertainty going on I can’t be!
Perhaps it’s 47? I’ll let you know
xxpt
*I don’t know if I remembered that correctly but I can’t be arsed finding out, it is what I remember from the book.
** . I did actually move to Sydney once before but that all ended rather poorly so I do not count it.
*** I cannot help that I am a Kevin Smith tragic the line pops into my head every damn time
Jess over at Essentially Jess is a very entertaining and funny woman on Twitter; I was surprised this morning to find she was such a prolific blogger, I was not however surprised that her self-deprecating humour shone through and that she has a heap of fans and commenters. IBOT seems to be a pretty neat idea nad who knows I might be abel to stick to this once a week caper!
This is the first time I’m linking with Jess for IBOT, due to the VERY sporadic nature of my actually writing on this blog it may be the only time too!
Friday, 20 April 2012
The Happy Having a Baby Shoes
This was the days before the baby bonus, before paid parental leave was even a pipe dream! I'm not sure if there were push presents as such and there was no one to buy me one anyway, so I bought my own and here they are....
These were my 3rd pair of docs, I'd never seen silver ones but I had previously painted shoes with silver nail polish so I knew they were for me. I called them my
"Happy Having a Baby" shoes and I wore them everywhere, and even though i loved them at first they, just like mothering were stiff and awkward and took awhile to feel right. I wore them to ring in the new year and on walks around a rather seedy neighbourhood on nights my baby couldn't sleep, to work, to the park, everywhere.
Now I wear them on occasion only, a couple of times this week due the Sydney weather being less than stellar, they do get worn a fair bit though by that baby I had bought them in celebration of. In a way I always thought they'd be hers I guess, she walked every mile in those shoes with me, and I love that these boots, these magic silver boots are a part of our shared family history.
They may not be fancy jewels or a handmade quilt but they are very much us.
xxpt
*I'm not an idiot I know these things especially the smoking were bad for both of us but I was young and invincible and a bit of an idiot.
Thursday, 16 February 2012
Sometimes toilets confuse me
I write this post in the hope that someone will help me figure out the dual flush on my toilet at home because after almost two years of living here I still cannot for the love of Ford Pills work out which is the half and which is the full flush button. They seem to both flush the same amount of water and run for a similar time to fill the cistern back up. This could however just be due to the landlord-DIY-ness of our rental house... but then again I find toilets out in the world also to be quite confusing... Stay with me.
Here is a rendering of our cistern.. (check out my mad Paint skillz!)

Now at first glance obviously the small button is the half flush because it is smaller and the large is the full because it is larger right? OR the small button is the full because it is a whole circle type of shape & the larger button is the half as it has a bit missing off the end and therefore not ‘whole’... Please note that earlier I stated there is no real discernible difference in the amount of water released by either button.
To further my confusion there are buttons like the following (again with the Paint, at least this time they were circles and easier to 'draw')

Now I have used commodes with both of these buttons at various locales, and through my er ‘research’ I have concluded that the larger button is in fact the smaller flush... I think...
God I really just don’t know, why can’t we just push the button halfway down instead?
Sometimes its the big issues with me and then other times... there is toilet cistern confusion..
Am I the only one that becomes confused about this stuff?
Friday, 23 December 2011
....tied up with string
Tuesday, 8 November 2011
A few short letters of correspondence from this morning...
You three are aceballs! Thanks for doing hard jobs and it was really nice to see you all smiling and chatty. Also Ambo guys, I love your coveralls any chance you could swing me a pair? Size small?
xxpt
Dear Coffee dudes at Alchemy Coffee,
Thank you for the coffee from heaven, I’m sorry I left my Keep-Cup at work yesterday and I do feel bad that because I have a long black coffee you need to give me 2 cups so I don’t burn my hand, next time I’ll show you that I have a cozy to go around my cup and you can keep your extra one!
xxpt
Dear Seat-mate on the L23,
I saw how much space was on the other side of you, you did not need all bar 7 inches of the chair. I think it was pretty rude but honestly you could, most likely smell my coffee of heaven so perhaps envy overrode your good humour. Next time though smile and wiggle over so that maybe I could have read my book too.
Thanks! pt
Dear French Campos Man I normally get my coffee from,
Sorry dude but I had very little sleep and I couldn’t wait. Please don’t think that it is over between us, you will still be my regular coffee guy, your accent is just as sweet as your coffee!
xxpt
Dear Laughing Workmen at the Uni
The fact that one of you nearly rolled around on the grass laughing really was nice to see. I hope your joke was of the savoury kind, but if not then I am glad that it tickled you so much. You brightened up my day!
xxpt
Dear Co-worker
Go home you are obviously ill and coughing everywhere in the office will make me sick too. Not sure if you know but I have a wedding to go to on Friday and even more importantly Thursday is MY BIRTHDAY - DO NOT MAKE ME SICK ON MY BIRTHDAY!!!
xxpt
PS. For fucks sake cover your mouth when you cough, its gross.
PPS. tights still not pants, I know you are trying to make them into pants but you are failing
Dear Panel Beaters across the road from my house
You have a very conscientious employee, did you know? He (and I say he as I have never seen a female in your shop) started work at 5:15am this morning!! I know that starting work at the allotted and legal time does not enable you to witness this so I am only too happy to help out. Banging on metal pipes and using and axle grinders are ALMOST as restful to wake up to as a songbird.
Please pass on my appreciation to your valued employee
xxpt
Dear Curry from last night I made up as I went along
You Rocked last night! Looking forward to meeting you for lunch again soon.
yours in anticipation
pt
Dear pillow
Lets hang out this afternoon yeah? I bet we could have a sneaky hour or so without anyone noticing.
xxpt
Wednesday, 7 September 2011
MrPt is away and there are some things I like about it
For most of this week TC and I are young hip and single ladies in our For most of this week TC and I are young hip and single ladies in our cool pad* MrPt is in Melbourne for a work thing. Last night I thought about some of the things that I like about him being away. Please don’t get me wrong there is a list just as long of things I miss about him when he is away too, but let’s focus on the positive yeah?
We did the groceries yesterday and the first thing we did was front up to the florist and ask for a bunch of the most fragrant flowers they had. You see my man is the most allergic to flowers & scents of anyone ever. I love flowers and really smelly ones the most. I large bunch of Fresias coming right up! They are so pretty and the lounge room smells so so good J
We love Vietnamese food!! There is really very little that MrPt will not eat in fact he has introduced both TC and I to a tonne of foods that we did not eat 10 years ago. However, he really dislikes mint, rice noodles and bean sprouts... all of my favourite things about Vietnamese cuisine. We shall be eating this at least once this week.
Girly music and tv.. Kylie, Amanda Palmer, Amy Winehouse and shows like the Voice and X Factor.... and I can re-watch this season of True Blood uninterrupted.
I get all of the bed and I get the car and I can sleep in or get up and get my yoga on if I want to...
Stay tuned for the things I do miss...
xxpt
*translation – she’s young, I have hips and whilst the house is really nice its rather messy.. It is next to a frozen food factory so kinda cool – right?
